Hi, I'm Nocturnal, What's your name?

Yeah, I'm at it again, writing when I should be sleeping. On a day before work. Same old stuff.

Anyways though, I don't have much to tell you or anything. And btw, if you're ever in the Houston area, visit the Taco Cabana. It's fantastic.

Fantastic is a great word, but I'm afraid it is horribly underused. I wish my window had a kitty door so my cats could come in. But, I guess it would get humid in here. One of these days I'm going to write a long paper on why my political ideology is right. The only problem is, the people who need to read it either A. Can't read. B. They don't feel like it-- laziness.

If A. , then it isn't really their fault, it is the fault of the system for not enabling everybody in our country to read. Yes, that's right, there are actually people in the United States who can't read.
If B., the reason they don't feel like reading it is because they have been brought up in a way of intellectual laziness. I think the majority of the US is like this now. Because we are instantly gratified with anything and everything, it makes a lot of us lazy intellectually (as well as spiritually, but that's a whole other ball game). When you get lazy in this way, you start going by your passions and how you feel (How do you think a president got elected with the campaign of HOPE?).

People were lazy and just took that HOPE label as a guarrantee. The HOPE had one problem though. Hope for who? The Democratic party? That's exactly what I think has happened. The Democrats and liberals are giddy at the power of having power over the executive and legislative branches. I really fear for the country because of how many bills have been passed at such a short time. Anyone who has looked back on our history can see that we have had to compromise to make things work for everyone.

Do you even know what the Articles of Confederation were? Think of them as basically the Constitution, except during 1777. The US Constitution we know today was not used until the summer of 1788. You know why? Because brilliant men who really wanted best for the country were willing to compromise with others who did not have the same views in order to create something that would be long lasting.

As 'open minded' as our president is supposed to be, it made MY JAW DROP when I heard his cocky, arrogant, and condenscending speech about passing the stimulus. Basically, he might as well have said, " I don't care what you Republicans think. You know why? Because I have the power to do this, I'm not even going to listen to your arguments or comtemplate on how I can make this stimulus plan better. I'm perfect, why would I need to check the final draft?"

I've also heard democrat snots saying, "Why should you have a say in the economy when your policies messed it up?"

EXCUSE ME? President Bush didn't have the power the current president has. He never had control of the legislative branch. If he did, you would have seen the economy fare better because trickle down economics WORK, (as you would know if you have taken American History or were alive during the Reagan Presidency).

By now, I know I've probably lost anybody's attention. But that's all I have to say, and it's almost 2:30... I meant to go to sleep at like, 11. great

Sleep... so how do you do that again?

So apparently I'm a moron and can not seem to make myself go to sleep at a halfway decent hour. Well, 1:41 isn't so bad, except I have to wake up at six, which makes it pretty bad. So, I got around to getting everything I live in (my car, my room) very clean and livable in. It's pretty much amazing. Next week I will begin midterms, which I have in every class except for chemistry, so I hope I can really focus and God blesses me with the ability to soak up everything I need to know. :)

But, be informed, I may not post very often in the next week.

So, I am going to be participating in an Easter play at my wonderful church Victory, so that should be fun. I am very secretly, (well I guess not anymore), hoping to be the angel!! haha My reason being that any play I have been in, I have always been an angel when there was one to play. If not an angel, maybe I can be a leper!!

Anyways, the idea of being an angel brings me back to the preschool days at Victory when we did the little Christmas play with Mary and the baby. And, EVERY YEAR they picked this girl to be Mary just because her name was Mary! I was always the angel. So, that's cool. Well, it wasn't then but now I'm glad I was the angel, because it's just enhanced my fine angel-acting skills. A while ago we were thinking about doing a Heaven's Gates and Hell's Flames production, and I signed up to be an actor for that, but we never ended up doing it! (Yes, I was secretly hoping for a coveted 'angel' position as well, though I would have settled for acting as a 'demon')

I guess I could have an acting resume. hmm Thinking back I have played as the mother of George M. Cohan, two angels in a nativity scene, in fifth grade I was an angel (who danced and sang<>), in another play I was just a regular human who sang about a treasure box?, and in another play I was an actress (haha), a couple of other plays where I just don't remember exactly what I was, and I've been in a choir for a couple of years. Too bad all of these occured under the age of 11, which is about the time when the cuteness leaves and you actually have to have talent. Oh snap! :)

Well I'm done aspiring to be an actress. Anyways, I kinda hope I actually do get a part in the production and that it doesn't end up being too consuming of my time.

I'm really going to have to kick it into high gear if I'm going to ace this semester. Which, I really need to because I do not want to have to wait to get into nursing school.

Enough on that. This economy is terrible! And our president is making it worse. Instead of helping the people that are going to be homeless and people who will struggle to feed their children, he just made a big 'pork barrel' so called 'stimulus'. PLEASE go look up just exactly what this 'stimulus' is going to be paying for too. Because, my idea of stimulating the economy does not include funding 'global warming' which has hurt our economy, sucked money out of us, and IS A HOAX. But that's all I'm going to waste precious blog space on talking about. As my facebook status says, I think it is JUST PLAIN SILLY that we devote billions of dollars to NASA and we give money away to other countries to help them ABORT THEIR BABIES, yet there are children starving to death in Africa.

There are way too many problems in this world for us to just ignore them the way we do. The other day I saw on TV they launched a 400 million dollar satellite up into the air to research global warming. It exploded.

400 million dollars exploded.

1,600 - nice middle class homes
14,000- fully loaded '09 Accords
80,000,000- taco bell meals
100,000,000- malaria pills

I don't know, you find things you think are important and find out how many of those 400,000,000 dollars could buy.

I'm blue dabadee dabadaa

This holiday has given me a lot of free time to think about life... haha Just kidding!! Well, I mean I have thought about God and life and everything a lot but that's not what I'm going to write about today because, quite frankly, I don't want every single post to bore the socks off of the 2 to 3 people who bother to read this! That being said, I will also say this blog is going to be about as pointless as that song, " I'm Blue Daba Dee Daba Da".

You know, I really hate that song, because I've tried to put my mind down in the gutter long enough to try to figure out if that song has a perverted theme behind it, but so far, no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to find anything bad about it. So, I'm glad it's not bad because it gets stuck in my head a LOT... But, if you know it's like bad or something, just let me know. Don't tell me why, just tell me not to get it stuck in my head and I'll catch your drift. You picking up what I'm putting down? Great.

While I'm on that subject, I really hate it when people always try to turn everything into a sexual innuendo. Like seriously, half the time I get what they're laughing about, and then I pretend like I don't get it because I wish I didn't. Why do people like to try to corrupt innocent people anyways? You know how it says in the bible that if you cause any of these(innocent people) children to sin, you might as well tie a millstone around your neck and jump in a lake... well, I wish people would respect that.

ha.. erm.. anyways

Obviously I didn't write this in the intention of saying anything.

AND
Oh, wowsers, I cleaned my room! I don't like being messy, but my room just turns up that way because I'm never home, so I used my holiday to completely sanitize it, and it is AMAZING(and all synonyms to amazing) I LOVE CLEANLINESS!! :) Seriously, you have no idea. It really makes me happy, if you can't tell. Tomorrow I'm cleaning the inside and out of my car, kinda like a Benny's @ Home Job. Which means I don't have to pay for it. heehee

I need to save up money for nursing school cause as much as Jessica has to study I know I'm gonna have to quit my job. Hopefully I'll be able to get some scholarships for nursing school... {{Hey Jessica, I know you're reading this, and you should try to find some scholarships too, I think they have seperate ones for nursing school, and you might as well apply for some because, hey, it's free money!! }}

I really love Snip, and to end this note I'm going to give you 10 reasons why Snip's the best cat in the world!!

10 OF the MANY Reasons Why Snip is the best kitty cat in the world!!
1. When I rode the school bus, he would wait at the end of the driveway for me to get on and sometimes even when I got home!!
2. He can be a very comfortable pillow!
3. He makes me feel loved when I feel like nobody else on Earth remembers me.
4. He is so cute when he sleeps!!
5. He has such an attitude but still loves me.
6. His meow is so funny!
7. He follows me around the house before I go to sleep because he wants to get in bed with me.
8. He knows how to open doors.
9. When you really make him mad he bites you and it's sooo cute!
10. He 'head butts' me so I'll scratch his head.
(Other reasons like he is Siamese is not included!)

Create in me a Pure Heart, Oh God...

Reading through Psalms 51, I found how closely I can relate. This was what David wrote when the prophet Nathan came to him after David committed adultery.

When I pray, I have learned from a book by Bill Hybels to follow a little layout called ACTS(http://www.prayerguide.org.uk/actsmodel.htm). I haven't truly followed it yet, but it helps me understand a lot about praying. A is for ADORATION. We must first adore God and go over everything (well try to go over a lot) of how amazing and majestic the God is we serve. This puts one in the correct attitude to pray. C is for CONFESSION. Confessing sins is so important to a relationship to God. Well, I think it is, because if you don't confess your sins, you will find yourself thinking of what a good little person you have been lately, when of course you aren't! Confessing sins also is a great way to finally get rid of that sin, because, sooner or later, you're going to get tired (and shamed) at having to bring such filth to God.

When I get to the confessions, I always think about how much I need a pure heart. Sure, every now and then I'll get to that point where I may do something simply for the glory of God, but sometimes I feel like I want some reward for the good things I do on Earth right now. And my spirit rebukes myself (I know this is all a little schitzophrenic, but does anyone else experience this daily battle?!) for thinking such evil thoughts all the time. Sometimes it drives me crazy, and I know if I get that disgusted with myself, what does God think. I hate it when I get angry or passionate about things that don't matter, or when I doubt God's power. I do desire a pure heart, and the only thing stopping God from creating it is myself of course. WOW, I am definately a work in progress, and sometimes I fear I'm falling behind where I should be right now. I really want God to use me on one hand, but sometimes I let myself fall into fear of what I may have to sacrifice. It's really horrible and selfish of me, but I refuse to lie about it, because if I'm honest about it, I think it will help me get over my fears and make whatever plunge God will need me to make!

Haha... Cash is sleeping by my feet and he makes these weird snoring/gurgling/weird noises all the time.

Anyways, though, I just wanted to share my heart on that matter and I left the link above so you can see the rest of ACTS, because I think it is really great. Gooood night!

Today!

Today was pretty long and boring, but not too bad. I woke up and went to school, but I was late because I woke up at like 7:40, when I usually try to leave at 7:45. :) So, I ended up leaving at about 8:00. Usually when I leave that late I make it there in time, but there were no parking spots available so I had to park in the overflow parking. But it was just psychology and he doesn't care if you leave late or early or don't come at all. But anyways, I had my chem lab and then my communications class. Today, we went to the southeastern studio and I got to talk into a teleprompter on a real set!! It was so cool, it kind of made me want to be a newsperson!! :) haha Then I had an hour break and then I went to my most boring class, Nutrition. I don't know how that class manages to be my most interesting and yet my most boring class! I always am so tired in that class, I think maybe it's just that time of day, because when I was in high school and I had classes at that time I always had to try not to nod off. I feel bad though because before class some guy asked me for five ones and I only had three, so he just gave me the five and took the three... So I HAVE to remember to give him the rest of the money in two weeks, but I'm sure I'll remember because I felt bad for him just giving me two dollars! Then, I finally got to go home, and when I did I took a LONG nap. Apparently too long, because I set my alarm so I could take a shower before church, and I didn't wake up! So, I got to church late, but we just had game night because the school was having science fair. We played put-out, which I somehow didn't do too horrible even thought I'm really bad at basketball. haha But anyways, then we played battleball, and our team won the first one and lost the second two. :( And the balls were bigger, so I couldn't really throw, so I gave them to people who could throw without people on the other team catching them. So, that means I always ended up being the last person. :) So, the second game they made me throw it, so I threw it at Maddie, and she caught it!! lol So, the second game it was me and Rachel I think left, and Joe threw it at me and I tried to catch it but it slipped out of my hands. Rachel got out at the same time... so we lost again. So, I bent down to pick up the ball I dropped, idk why, and then I look up and Stephen chunks a ball at my face!! HAHA Well, I didn't laugh then, I was pretty mad and I guess surprised. So, I was like, 'ugh omg that was so unneccessary' , but it really didn't hurt, it just scared me and stung me a little, so I felt bad cause everyone made big deal out of it and I probably made him feel bad. But, I guess I'm kinda glad cause if it did break my nose or something at least everyone wouldn't have laughed at me even though they probably felt like it. :) haha! And now I'm home writing this about to go to bed because I have my last day at work before a long, beautiful holiday!! :) Hopefully I get to hang out with my girlsies!! Hurray!

Don't Look Back

Don't dwell on what God hasn't given you yet, or you will miss the things he has given you now! It is amazing how much more I fall in love with God the more I learn and experience in life. All good and bad things just make me stronger! It's so awesome! The more I give to God, the more content and joyful I am with where I am, and I hope that everyone would find that in their life!!! If you think about it, though, there should be nothing in your heart but building joy. In our youth, we have so much potential to do whatever we can do to make our mark on the world. In our middle age, we can have the joy of being at the most capable time in our life as far as being free to use your own finances and means to do the work of the Lord. In our old age, we are able to still look forward to meeting Jesus in a new place so infinitely better than what we've experienced in this life, to worship him forever. I just can't wait until I'm there. But then again, I can. I just know that the best time in my life is when I'm in church with my brothers and sisters praising our king, or when I'm in a long car ride by myself just talking and confiding in my God, or when I walk outside at night wondering at his creation in the sky. The best thing about my relationship with God is that he never ceases to amaze and I never have anything to be disappointed in. It's great.
Philippians 4:4 , "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!"

Amplified

So, I haven't written in quite a while, which I apologize for. This past weekend I went to amplified, a youth conference at Healing Place. It was really, really great, and exactly what I needed.
There were so many things that I have been thinking about in my life that I just need to give to God. Although some of the stuff wasn't for me, because it was for kids in middle school and high school, I did get something out of it. Some of the things that really affected me though, were how he talked about how we had a time limit. It made you think, "When does my time end?" We only have a certain amount of time left on the Earth, and mine could end any second. I could get in a car wreck and die on my way to school tonight. I could start feeling bad and go to the doctor and find out I have cancer and die in a couple of months. I could get murdered at school or work. I could get salmonella poisoning from that sandwich I just ate and die. I could die in five years in childbirth. Or in ten years from a sudden blod clot. lol Sorry for being so gory and weird scary sounding, but I'm trying to make a point. Everyone dies, and you never know when it could happen. So, what am I going to do to make the time that I was on the Earth worthwhile? So, I have decided to make my life make a difference every second I have a chance to. That means making conversation with people in elevators, or maybe that girl who I've sat by in three classes but have never spoken to. I should invite people to my church more often. I need to tell stories of how God has made my life better. I NEED to pray so much more than I do. And I will. And those are the small things. In my justice lab we talked about helping people who have an unjust life, like kids who get sold as sex slaves and the children they have that are, if they are girls, disposed of, and if they are boys, trained up to be soldiers in warring countries in Africa. Not only will that be the only life they know, it is worse than that. They are dehumanized to the point where the commandos addict them to heroin at a young age, and they are told that if they don't fight, they don't get their heroin. They will probably die a frightening death and will never know love in their whole life. Where is the justice there?
These are real problems in our world... not a person losing their 250,000 dollar home or someone getting their car repossessed. Sure, those are bad and I'm all against stopping those things, but we are so wrapped up in our little self absorbed bubbles that we forget that those things don't matter in the end. I hope that I will make Jesus proud and that I will do what he wants me to do in this world, and not be a screw up!!

I am very happy that I went to that conference. It really was great, and I got to hang out with everybody from church which was also a blast! It really made me homesick for heaven when I was in a huge, crowded room with people worshiping Jesus and really giving him their all. Not that I want to die, but I really can't wait to get into heaven. And I hope everyone I ever meet will get to go to!!!